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Add your own PEEVE (as a Comment) Add your COMMENTS (signed would be great!)I just finished watching Episodes 3, 4 and 5 of this current season called, Book III: Fire. A few hours ago, I also just finished reading more fanfics from FanFiction.Net.
My head is spinning with AllThingsAvatar. *curses_some_more*
I mean, WOW. I'm, like, TWENTY-FRIKKIN'-NINE YEARS OLD and I'm totally 'shipping this Nicktoon. Wow.
(1) Whatever anyone says about the eppies, it's been a fantastic ride so far, especially since the characters are being developed more. My only worry is, in the mad dash to The Day of Black Sun, some critical developments in character may have been left to chance (read: Let's just cut corners in the narrative and just put info in here and there, and/or let's just plug in some storytelling/flashbacks to fill in the gaps in previous narratives). Tsk.
(2) I ESPECIALLY don't get how all that froufrou between Zuko and Mai happened. Wow. I mean, it's completely beside the point that I'm a Zutarian (GAG, I know, but that's how "we're" called), but this MaiKo thing just came out of NOWHERE! The storytelling just came off as some poorly worded, poorly told, poorly constructed, juvenile fanfic (no offense to fanfic writers but, come on, you have to admit, if you 'ship, you better do your 'shipping justice by not just writing about it, but writing about it WELL)... And. Just. When. I. Thought. MaiKo. Were. Gonna. Break. Up... THEY FRIKKIN' GET BACK TOGETHER BEFORE THE (SAME) DAMN EPPIE WAS OVER. *screams*
*** THERE IS, APPARENTLY, A 'CANONICAL' INTERLUDE COMIC EXPLAINING ALL THIS (THERE GO 'OUR' HOPES...) ***
(3) *sobs*
* * * * *
On to other matters...
(4) Kimi Raikkonen (once the darling of my heart, as well, wehehehe! WISH!) has finally won a World Championship (with Ferrari). Still, I can't help but wish that it was Lewis Hamilton who had won (he SOOOO deserved it - damn McLaren for failing him in the last, penultimate, deciding race of this season!), or Fernando Alonso at the very least - he's looked so demoralized and sad this season, what with upstart Hamilton washing him out...
* * * * *
On more serious things...
(5) I just came back from a weekend with the husband. We were in Bacolod for the 'worms Pepsi Masskara Festival gig the day of the Glorietta 2 blast. We were both so grateful that we were not even close to Makati at the time, and that WE WERE TOGETHER. In fact, I joined him for his next three gigs the day after even though I was so tired and sleepy... we flew in back from Bacolod, went to Robinsons MetroEast, then Taal Vista Lodge, then some mall in Laguna; we ended that day about 4 in the morning of the next.
I just felt that if anything were to happen, I would much rather that we be together through it. I couldn't survive losing him like that. You can insure someone's body, but how do you insure his/her loved ones' hearts???
I wish I didn't worry so much, especially about him and especially when he's away, as he most often is. BUT HOW CAN YOU NOT BE AFRAID WHEN YOU HAVE SO MUCH TO LOSE?
* * * * *
Maybe that's why I'm so fascinated with Avatar. As so many people are by superheroes.
* * * * *
Maybe I just REALLY, REALLY LIKE Zuko. *LoL*
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(6) Work was as *blah* as ever. I don't know why I'm letting my life run away from me like this. I really feel that I'm just a shell of my former self. Wala, eh. I have to be practical. There can't be one too many people taking the plunge into the deep blue beyond; I just can't NOT walk around in this hollow but protective 'shell'.
It was nice, though, to have C3 with my old/new officemate, Gary. He said he was so impressed by the husband's work, especially with NTS, as it was a well written and well executed project, and that in fact, he was a little starstruck when I introduced the husband to him. (*little_lol*) It kinda made me feel, even if for just a little while, that it's all good because I was doing the world some kind of service because HE was doing the world some kind of service.
* * * * *
Avatar screenshots to follow soon (I hope!).
- Location:homage
- Mood:
finally, i sleep... - Music:fanblades
A firebolt streaking across the heavens.
I look down.
I know...
... that the glittering seas are full of her tears.
... that she would always be alone.
... that she would always whisper my name in vain,
search for my hand in the dark.
I would always be alone.
The universe awaits me.
She would always be lonely.
Infinity stretches before her.
Silver rings tether her.
I look back,
but don't linger.
I am a star. A comet.
And I blaze a trail where she cannot follow.
- Mood:
pensive - Music:air whirring out of the A/C
It consumes me. Whole.
And save for a pathetic few
Turns to ashes
Any and all relationships I've ever had
Personal or otherwise.
I hate this terrible need for control
Over this universe created by chaos.
Where the one thing I can wield and bend at will
Is my anger
My scorn
My disdain
My wrath
My sarcasm
My biting tongue.
But my fiery Arian soul
Rages out of my control.
And I cry.
And regret.
And look to go
Where my fury has not laid all to waste.
- Mood:
guilty
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*****
My current job is one of those on this list and I'm hating it and am doing my darnedest to be rid of it; the job I WANT is on this SAME list. Go figure.
- Mood: depressed
I don't exactly know how I'm supposed to feel about that.
I've been on a crazy rollercoaster ride since I FINALLY finished checking submissions and posting grades and was FINALLY able to start working on this wedding.
In about a week, I will be Mrs. Singson. Wow. How's that for a life-changing experience?
Oh, but there's more in this summer cocktail of changes:
* I've quit my job - as I'd been threatening to do for years
* I'm leaving home - relocating to Makati w/ my soon-to-be-chubby-hubby
* I'm trading my career for housewife-y duties, some part-time work, and some gradschool
*****
GAH! Anyone who wants to have a say on how I should BE through all these, you're welcome to post your cents' worth! Hahaha!
- Mood:
anxious
The Quiet World
Jeffrey Mcdaniel
in an effort to get people to look
into each other's eyes more,
the government has decided to allot
each person exactly one hundred
and sixty-seven words, per day.
when the phone rings, i put it
to my ear, without saying hello.
in the restaurant, i point
at chicken noodle soup. i am
adjusting well to the new way.
late at night, i call my long-
distance lover and proudly say:
"i only used fifty-nine today.
i saved the rest for you."
when she doesn't respond, i know
she's used up all her words,
so i slowly whisper i love you,
thirty-two and a third times.
after that, we just sit on the line
and listen to each other breathe.
- Location:home
- Mood: contemplative
- Music:home sounds
NO. EXHAUSTED.
BEYOND REPAIR OR RESTORE.
*****
RESTART OR REBOOT.
OR DEFRAG.
*****
BUT HAPPY.
AND CONTENT.
AT PEACE, EVEN.
*****
The clock ticks.
Ends another day.
The resolution to this tragedy...
Travesty...
Comedy of errors...
Comes ever closer.
*****
I can SEE it
SMELL it
FEEL it
TASTE it
in the glaring flourescent above my head
in the blast from the whirring fan to my left
in the tips of my fingers dancing a frenzy over the keyboard
in the sting of the mosquitoes at my legs
I can HEAR it...
Tick
Tock
Tick
Tock
Tick...
*****
And I am happy.
Content.
At peace.
*****
Good night, world!
I welcome the drugging
Healing
Mindless abandon
Of your dark embrace.
*****
La noire est mon ciel.
- Location:la-la land (almost!)
- Mood: CarryingTheWorld...LettingItGo
- Music:The Cranberries' DAFFODIL LAMENT
By D'Sound
Baby you'll soon forget about all,
or maybe you'll miss it like I do.
One thing's for sure I'm on a doubt,
spend too much time thinkin' of you
chorus
And I can't get you out of my dreams
Now I know that you're the dangerous kind
And your smile is tattooed on my mind
And I can't get you out of my dreams
Don't wanna write,
I don't wanna call,
I would not know what to say
It should be you
That's how I want it to be
Tell me you feel the same way
chorus
And I can't get you out of my dreams
Now know that you're a danger first kind
And your smile is tattooed on my mind
And I can't get you out of my dreams...oh!
Oh, Yesterday, I was feelin' safe, oh
All I do today is tryin' to be BRAVE
and no melody can seem to suit my mind...
and now I curse you for being so sweet and so kind
chorus
And I can't get you out of my dreams
Now I know that you're a dangerous kind
And your face is tattooed on my mind
And I can't get you out of my dreams..
Yes I know you're tattooed
On my mind you're tattooed
*****
AH...
CAN'T WAIT FOR F1 2007 TO BEGIN IN MARCH...
CAN'T WAIT FOR F4-RISE OF THE SILVER SURFER IN JUNE...
*****
I - JUST - CAN'T - WAIT!
- Mood:
The IceMan & The Human Torch - Music:D'SOUND'S Tattooed On My Mind
In less than an hour, some freaky Middle Eastern types already started hounding me online. *hurl* They were young, about my age, and even looked good but I just didn't appreciate the way they were coming on to me EVEN THOUGH MY WHOLE TAGGED PAGE WAS COVERED WITH PICTURES AND DETAILS OF ME AND MY CHINO! My default pic was even of my engagement ring, worn around my right hand, which was held by Chino. I just ignored them. Hope they found someone else to bug.
As I continued browsing the site, I discovered pictures of more disturbing types. Men. Women. Pa-sexy posing. *hurls_some_more* I mean, I don't want to be a prude here, pero wholesome ako, so sorry.
Binenta ko pa naman 'yung Tagged idea sa Friendster contacts ko. *sigh*
When I texted Chino about it, he validated my fears by saying that he'd gotten lots of invites to Tagged before but he refrained from signing on (until I 'tagged' him today) because of the weirdos and the spam.
I think I better warn my students and my friends...
- Mood:
pissed off
I don't love you as if you were the salt-rose, topaz
or arrow of carnations that propagate fire:
I love you as certain dark things are loved,
secretly, between the shadow and the soul.
I love you as the plant that doesn't bloom and carries
hidden within itself the light of those flowers,
and thanks to your love, darkly in my body
lives the dense fragrance that rises from the earth.
I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where,
I love you simply, without problems or pride:
I love you in this way because I don't know any other way of loving
but this, in which there is no I or you,
so intimate that your hand upon my chest is my hand,
so intimate that when I fall asleep it is your eyes that close
sonnet 17
pablo neruda
It is such a comfort during those times that he seems so far away...
- Mood:
loved
Fly high!... este, All Hail!...
(3rd from left)
The gown sucks, though.
*****
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*****
ERRATUM:
She's from Batch 2001 ^_^
- Mood:
pleased
I'm happy with just myself and my S.O., thanks.
Yeaaaa!!! No more HAVE TOs, here I come!!!
"Daffodil Lament"
HOLDING ON, THAT'S WHAT I DO SINCE I MET YOU.
AND IT WON'T BE LONG. Would you notice if I left you?
And it's fine for some 'cause you're not the one,
You're not the one there...
There... there... there... there... there...
ALL NIGHT LONG, LAID ON MY PILLOW,
THESE THINGS ARE WRONG.
I CAN'T SLEEP HERE!
So lovely, so lovely, so lovely.
I HAVE DECIDED TO LEAVE YOU FOREVER.
I HAVE DECIDED TO START THINGS FROM HERE.
THUNDER AND LIGHTNING WON'T CHANGE,
WHAT I'M FEELING and the daffodils look lovely today,
And the daffodils look lovely today,
Look lovely today.
Ooh, in your eyes I can see the disguise.
Ooh, in your eyes I can see the dismay.
Has anyone seen lightning?
Has anyone looked lovely?
And the daffodils look lovely today,
And the daffodils look lovely today,
Look lovely today...
Look lovely, [X 9]
Na, na. Na, na na na...
TO MY BABY...
"Dreaming My Dreams"
ALL THE THINGS YOU SAID TO ME TODAY,
CHANGE(D) MY PERSPECTIVE IN EVERY WAY.
THESE THINGS COUNT TO MEAN SO MUCH TO ME,
Into my faith, you and your baby.
It's out there. It's out there.
It's out there. If you want me I'll be here.
[X2]
I'LL BE DREAMING MY DREAMS WITH YOU.
I'LL BE DREAMING MY DREAMS WITH YOU.
AND THERE'S NO OTHER PLACE,
THAT I'D LAY DOWN MY FACE.
I'LL BE DREAMING MY DREAMS WITH YOU.
It's out there. It's out there.
It's out there. If you want me I'll be here...
[X2]
I'll be dreaming my dreams with you.
I'll be dreaming my dreams with you.
And there's no other place,
That I'd lay down my face.
I'll be dreaming my dreams with you.
Dreaming my dreams with you.
I'll be dreaming my dreams with you.
And there's no other place,
That I'd lay down my face.
I'll be dreaming my dreams with you.
*****
JE T'ADORE!!! *bises*
- Location:homage
- Mood: jubilant
- Music:THE CRANBERRIES' Daffodil Lament
As that old 60's song goes...
ificouldsavetimeinabottle
thefirstthingthati'dliketodo
istosaveeveryday'tileternitypassesaway
justtospendthemwithyou...
*****
TIME IN A BOTTLE (Jim Croce)
If I could save time in a bottle
The first thing that I'd like to do
Is to save every day
Till eternity passes away
Just to spend them with you
If I could make days last forever
If words could make wishes come true
I'd save every day like a treasure and then,
Again, I would spend them with you
But there never seems to be enough time
To do the things you want to do
Once you find them
I've looked around enough to know
That you're the one I want to go
Through time with
If I had a box just for wishes
And dreams that had never come true
The box would be empty
Except for the memory
Of how they were answered by you
But there never seems to be enough time
To do the things you want to do
Once you find them
I've looked around enough to know
That you're the one I want to go
Through time with
*****
I actually discovered this song many years ago when I was in Grade 6, leafing through my Mom's old scrapbook of sorts. It was her college barkada - the POF's (aka Prisoners of Food) scrapbook.
- Location:chezmoi,infrontofthecomputer,withthemosquitosforcompany
- Mood: exhausted
- Music:ificouldsavetimeinabottle
JUST
DOESN'T
STOP.
No matter how hard I try. It just steamrolls all over me.
This sucks.
- Location:HomeSweetHome
- Mood: tired
- Music:The migraine buzzing just under my skull...
WHEN I FLIP MY HAIR
- I WANT YOU TO RUN YOUR FINGERS THROUGH IT
WHEN I RUN AWAY FROM YOU
- I WANT YOU TO CHASE ME
WHEN I POUT MY LIPS
- I WANT YOU TO KISS ME
WHEN I KICK & PUNCH
- I NEED YOU TO HOLD ME TIGHT
WHEN I CALL YOU A LOSER
- JUST KNOW THAT YOU'RE MY LOSER
WHEN I IGNORE YOU
- I WANT YOUR UNDIVIDED ATTENTION
WHEN I PULL AWAY
- I NEED YOU TO GRAB ME BY THE WAIST
AND NEVER LET GO
WHEN I SCREAM AT YOU
- JUST TELL ME YOU LOVE ME
AND MEAN IT
WHEN YOU SEE ME WALKING
- SNEAK UP BEHIND ME,
GRAB ME BY THE WAIST,
AND PLANT A QUICK KISS ON MY LITTLE BUTTON NOSE
IF I DON'T CALL YOU
- I'M WANTING YOU TO CALL ME
WHEN I'M SCARED
- HOLD ME
AND TELL ME THAT EVERYTHING WILL BE OK
BECAUSE YOU ARE WITH ME
WHEN I LOOK LIKE SOMETHING'S THE MATTER
- GIVE ME A WINK
AND TELL ME NOT TO WORRY
WHEN I HOLD YOUR HANDS
- LOCK YOUR FINGERS WITH MINE
AND SQUEEZE THEM TIGHT
WHEN I CRY
- SAY, "EVERYTHING'S GOING TO BE OK"
AND THEN,
KISS ME AGAIN
AND WHEN YOU SEE ME AT MY WORST
- PLEASE TELL ME
THAT I'M STILL THE MOST BEAUTIFUL GIRL
YOU'VE EVER SEEN.
- Location:In front of our Philips big-screen watching Voltes V DVDs
- Mood: pensive
- Music:Voltes V theme
Maybe someday someone will sing it to me, too! *wink*
BEAUTIFUL SOUL
by Jesse McCartney
[Chorus]
I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I want to chase
You're the one I want to hold
I won't let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
[Verse #1]
I know that you are something special
To you I'd be always faithful
I want to be what you always needed
Then I hope you'll see the heart in me
[Chorus]
Your beautiful soul, yeah
[Verse #2]
You might need time to think it over
But I'm just fine moving forward
I'll ease your mind
If you give me the chance
I will never make you cry, c'mon let's try
[Chorus]
[Break]
Am I crazy for wanting you
Baby do you think you could want me, too
I won't waste your time
Do you see things the way I do
I just want to know that you feel it, too
There is nothing left to hide
[Chorus 2x]
Your beautiful soul, yeah...
*****
Spent the whole day compiling my Avatar Season 1 and 2 vids on YouTube so I'm all set now for viewing it straight through to the end! ^_^
*****
After three days of doing this and listening to BEAUTIFUL SOUL and Ryan Cabrera's ON THE WAY DOWN...
Sick and tired of this world
There's no more air
Tripping over myself, going nowhere
Waiting, suffocating, no direction
I took a dive and
[CHORUS]
On the way down
I saw you, and you saved me from myself
And I won't forget the way you loved me
And on the way down
I almost fell right through
But I held on to you
Been wondering why it's only me
Have you always been inside waiting to breathe
It's alright, sunlight on my face
I wake up and yet, I'm alive 'cuz
[CHORUS]
I want to fade, I'm going under
But now, the weight of the world
Feels like nothing, nothing
(down, down, down)
You're all I wanted
(down, down, down)
You're all I needed
(down, down, down)
You're all I wanted
You're all I needed
And I won't forget the way you loved me
All that I wanted, all that I needed and now
(CHORUS)
...[WHICH ALWAYS REMINDS ME OF THAT GORGEOUS RYAN REYNOLDS in Van Wilder 'coz of the closing scene with Tara Reid, hahahaha!!!]
...I'm just so 'high' and giddy and over the moon!...
(Nothing beats fantasy if you don't wanna think about going back to the unpleasantness of work!)
- Location:Online, where else?
- Mood: So kinikilig!!!
- Music:Jesse McCartney's BEAUTIFUL SOUL (duh!)
I've just spent this entire day watching Avatar episodes on YouTube. Thank God for technology. I've just finished watching Season 2.
*sigh*
I am SO happy.
I am also so happy to not do anything except enjoy myself today, catching up on the Avatar saga.
Of course, crushing on Zuko kept me pretty interested all day long *wicked_laughter*
*****
What is it about Zuko's character that intrigues so many people? I mean, all this probably sounds pretty off coming from a 28-year-old, and him being a teenage cartoon character and all, but he is actually the most complex character in the series. Everyone else is pretty straightforward.
Katara is your nice but tough girl; Sokka your masochistic but sweet guy; Iroh your quirky but loving uncle; Toph your privileged but streetwise blind girl; Zhao and Azula and cohorts being your cold-blooded, ambitious villains... Even Aang, the lead character, in spite of his often being flaky still has to be represented as the very clear hero of the story, always coming through at the end. But Zuko, you can never really tell if he will do the right thing or the wrong thing.
Throughout the series, you see him struggling with himself, between the two halves of his self so clearly represented by the two, very physical halves of his face; the good and the bad. In fact, he is the one character in the series, apart from when the Avatar goes into his Avatar State, that has gone through so many physical transformations that parallel his very complicated life.
Look #1 - Regular Fire Prince
Look #2 - Post-Agni Kai with Dad
Look #3 - The Blue Spirit
Look #4 - Alone
Look #5 - Reunited with his uncle
Look #6 - At the crossroads of his destiny
You never quite know what he will do. He is ruthless but kind, even wise at the last minute. And yet, just when you think he has listened to the Wise Red Dragon of his uncle, learning to balance yin and yang and to even harness lightning, he once again is consumed by his need to recover his honor and allows himself to be duped by the seductive promises of the Deceptive Blue Dragon of his sister.
*****
Aang and Zuko mirror each other perfectly. They both are struggling with who they truly are, not knowing whether to love or hate themselves for it. You have a hero who is a coward, and a villain who is honorable.
It is the vacillation of these two characters between the different directions of the crossroads of their destinies that actually drives the story forward. Every time you think that the story will finally reach some kind of resolution, one or both of them makes a crucial decision that pushes the happy ending just that much farther away.
Case in point is the end of Season 2. I really just couldn't get what happened to Zuko there. He'd progressed so much after his sickness that he really seemed to have metamorphosed into a new man, rejecting his former temperamental and prideful self, in favor of a zen kind of guy who was ready to face his past and start over with or without the Avatar.
So many things seemed to conspire to bring him into the Light - being befriended by Aang, memories of his mother, his uncle's continuing care and guidance, a girl who understood his scar because of her own, his first kiss, Katara trying to remove his scar...
And then, he sides with his sister - against even his beloved uncle - at that crucial point when the Avatar needed him most.
I - JUST - DON'T - GET IT!
Possibility #1
Bad boys don't become good so stop hoping.
Possibility #2
Zuko seeming to go back to the Dark Side is key to the eventual defeat of the Fire Nation because he'll be 'on the inside' once again - and this time, he can work with lightning just like the prodigy, Azula.
Possibility #3
The writers just needed him to flake out again at the last minute so that they'd have an excuse to continue into Season 3.
Whatever the reason, it's getting pretty tiresome to watch him yo-yo from side to side. He's just got to choose a side already. It's not realistic anymore. Either he's good, or he's bad. Mostly, at least.
Or, this could just be me bemoaning the wait-'til-Season 3-in-March (I think) and that they didn't let Zuko keep his 'in-between', short-cropped hair. Now, he looks like that (other) madman in the series, Jet. *some_cursing*
*****
Going back to the point of all this, why is Zuko so intriguing? I guess it's because he reminds me of myself, and of everyone else around me that I've both loved and hated. Because regular people are both good AND bad. And because most of us both love AND hate ourselves for it, too.
Or...
Maybe I really, really, REALLY am just a sucker for guys who FIGHT for what they want and believe in [no matter what the cost, who never give up... Who seem nasty but who are actually principled and honorable, very nice and sensitive to others, and just looking for someone to love and understand them...]
Or maybe I really, really, REALLY just want Zuko and Katara to get together in a Romeo-and-Juliet kind of way here so that I can keep imagining dramatic, do-or-die romantic episodes for myself! *sick_laughter*
- Location:Online, where else?
- Mood: giddy
- Music:Ryan Cabrera's ON THE WAY DOWN
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